So i’m now at the end of week 2 of being back at work having had a month ‘off’.
I need an actual break now!
Believe it or not, it was not enough time!
Anyone else feel like that…that they need a break after a break!!!?
In the month i had not been ‘work’ working, i still found myself running out of time for the all important ‘stepping out’ i needed for me.
Time, and the rapidness of it passing by, is a deep reminder just how little i have in my life, and that needs to change.
This is what i’ve done in the 1month-4wks-28days i tried so hard to protect so i could start to face some deep wounds:
INDIA.
Travelled to India to sell the family property – not what i wanted at all and tried hard for over 3.5yrs to save it from a sale but the decision was taken out of my hands.
A friend in India, when he found out what had happened, simply said to me…‘this is not your path’.
Without any drama, without the fanfare of heightened emotions, the simplicity of his words hit hard because he is right.
So accepting that was no longer my path, opened up so many other doors, all of which i am so grateful for.
I navigated a complex and colonial facilitated legal system to see this process through.
The entire process has taken me almost 3.5yrs and in the end it took 3 solid days of meetings, signatures, stamps, paperwork and payments to see that on to its next chapter.
Such a weird feeling of something you want to hold on to so badly, being sold off so easily.
And now back in the UK there continues a load of legal loose ends to deal with!
I am by trade a planner, i research and plan ahead but i was so unprepared for the aftermath of what was needed to be done once back in the UK that to this day continues to take up much of my time.
Whilst in India i almost had to battle to secure some time just for me, and in these moments i had lots of massages, ate glorious food, swam as much as possible, jet skied (was told to slow down!!), parasailed (even with my fear of heights!), visited old haunts, caught up with friends, wrote and tried my hardest to switch off my ever active brain!
Leaving India to the UK under the air of India/Pakistan tensions arising from the Kashmiri attack – it dawned on me how the untethering of this line through the sale may never be connected again.
But in reality my relationship with India is as strong as ever and i will of course return in time.
UK.
Back to the UK and its surprising heatwave, i began to find myself packing out my days.
Stupidly i started putting work stuff in – NOPE, lets not do that!
So a re-prioritisation of the final 2wks began filled with pilates, walks, rest, good food, gym hangs, pottering in the garden, mooching, hanging with my beautiful peeps and catching up with MAFS!
Oh and did i tell you i’ve been part of the 2025 Re-Up (part of Clore) Restorative Care Practice cohort…led by the brilliant Gaylene Gould and Zaynab Bunsie.
I presented an exploratory idea around GRIEF AND DEADWOODING – the first time i have had anything personal in a professional space.
Im extremely fortunate to report back that it was received with masses of generosity and support so i’m hoping to expand on it within my practice.
If you are interested to learn more about my topic and the process i took, please do get in touch and i’m more than happy to share the WiP with you.
WORK & TIME.
So now i am back in the flow of ‘work’ work, how am i different?
How did time out to focus on a massive responsibility in another country affect me?
How do i protect time for me?
Well i can tell you that there are good days and there are bad days, and thats fine.
I will be working a tad slower, with more heightened consideration and strategy, with more focus on the priorities.
Each day i am fully embracing what serves me as the priority.
I am deliberately and consciously making decisions to better my future opportunities with ‘work’ work.
I am accepting of support…even though sometimes having to talk about feelings can give me the ick!…so bare with.
And things that i have had to let go of like the India property…well, that is part of the processing i am deep in now.
I have also been invited to be a Mentor on a British Council project which supports business’s in Buenos Aires with a few other bits for Kala Phool in the mix which are all amazing and they make me happy, i think this year will be a fab one.
More on the Buenos Aires project as it develops.
MENTORING BOOK IS NOW OPEN.
My Mentoring book is back open starting from June2025 so if you are exploring ways of supporting yourself and would like a chat, do get in touch.
TIME.
So from here on in i will be resting more.
Mental, physical and spiritual rest is the mix for me.
More time to be still.
Oh, and time with the amazing people in my life.
So yeah…that’s what i’ve been up to…hope you are looking after yourself too.
